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Hi Everyone!

I know I kinda dropped off the face of the earth, but a lot has happened. Mentally and emotionally. Have been in and out of the crazy bin while they are regulating my meds. I have been hating everything equally. And then my kitchen broke and I t couldn't cook for sanity. And then both my computers broke and I couldn't blog about anything, lol. But I used to be a person, a person who sailed through life not looking down... not looking for the wires that would trip me, not seeing the foliage I would fall into, never knowing if it would break my fall or send three wooden spikes through my heart. - However...

Speaking of hearts.. ! <3 <3 - I just found out some amazing news a few months ago.. ! I have a sister! And she is now the middle child, and I have a sister for the FIRST TIME EVER. I can now do all those things labeled "sister"... cards....and shares... : )  Blood related and everything, her last name (originally) matched mine. She emailed me which was so courageous and I am really thankful and blessed every day that I know she is in this world. She was EXACTLY what our shared Mother wanted. She's smart... like IVY LEAGUE smart, and she's a nervball like me, and she looks just like our shared Mother (which is disconcerting at times, but I never tire of it). It's like having a piece of my Mother back. Knowing my family is now the most WHOLE it can be. Even if we are scattered across the entire side of a country. Interesting to note tho - we're all on the same side, including my Brother. Having her, or just knowing she's there I know is a gift from above. Knowing there is someone who trips around like I do, who has some of the same mannerisms, speech, and we're both WRITERS. Like we were separated from birth or something... She's a writer tho who gets paid to write. I'll get paid.... eventually. But who cares about money when you have a new family member. Especially when my side of the family is having such LOW numbers. Anyway, I meant to write about, Little Chicken a long time ago but words didn't and still don't seem to sum it up. It's an awesome thing knowing that me and Rivers aren't alone in the world. That MOM still lives in all of us.

This week has been crazy on a supernatural Mom level. The house is  SMATTERED COVERED in Red Lipstick and I keep dropping everything. Mercury is in retrograde, however I feel Mom's presence. I'm moving which is REALLY hard. Me and change deal with each other like a fucking quarter glued to the floor. But, I think Mom's cluttery, loud, inappropriate (like the time she told my Brother at our great-grandfather's funeral that passing on for him (GGF) was a great journey because he was now "Flying around Heaven with his massive ears.... ") <~~~~ True story, Little Chicken.... right at his casket....! But I digress.... Mom has really made her presence known this week and I appreciate every bit of it. In a small way I don't feel so lost, forlorn, forgotten and abandoned. Of course, death isn't like your own business.... You don't choose your own hours...

Speaking of the supernatural again, I have started working as an Empath/Tarot Reader on a part time basis. I love helping people, it's in my blood - Little Chicken's blood - and River's blood whether it's teaching, being a spiritual advisor or putting someone's carburetor back together. We like to help...

(Pictures - Me, Little Chicken (new sister) and Rivers (brother, with... yes... that is Taylor Switft) Lol.. We are such a family now!



So there is an update... If she gives the okay and River's also.... I will post our pics! (but that one is me of course... I think I have my own permission...)

Thanks for listening, the support from this blog has been amazing to me in such hard times.

Me.